gaijin’s drench territory

i know you made so many mistakes, but i chose to stay.
still hoping that someday you will change
or that things will change for us.
that destiny will fall in our hands
AND IT SURE WILL…
i know things are way too complicated now.
but i only have  one thing to assure you,
i only made one promise, i will love only you.
and i wont make that as a promise just becoz you ask me to, i made that promise because i want to.
in my life, i chose my brain all the time, i haven’t had the chance of chosing my heart…
but this time, i will.
may my decision be for my paths worst, or may it be a fulfillment of my life,
but i wanna take this chance, jsut for once
because im no longer scared…because i know i have you.
just give me the time i needed,
and i know you will have me, one day…all my life

this is the song i wanna share to everyone before it’s too late for u!!!
guys, if it happens? well, life has to go on.if you’re ment for each other…then you’re, if you’re not, then as the saying goes “there’s so many fish in the ocean!” move on people….but in the end, there’s only one you…so which means, in the end, it’s still gonna be your decision.
hahahahaha! chill out pipz:-)
—————————————————– I’m holding on your rope,
 Got me ten feet off the ground
 I’m hearin what you say but I just can’t  make a sound
 You tell me that you need me
 Then you go and cut me down, but  wait
 You tell me that you’re sorry
 Didn’t think I’d turn around, and say  that…

 It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
 I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too  late

 I’d take another chance, take a fall
 Take a shot for you
 And I need you like a heart needs a  beat
 But it’s nothing new
 I loved you with a fire red-
 Now it’s turning blue, and you say…
 ”Sorry” like the angel heaven let me  think was you
 But I’m afraid…

 It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
 I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too  late

 Bridge (guitar/piano)

 It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
 I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too  late
 It’s too late to apologize, yeah
 I said it’s too late to apologize, yeah-
 I’m holdin on your rope, got me ten feet  off the ground…
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in my life, there is no space for patience…

once my good friend often told me that prayers are always answered to the best way it will be…yet it is not answered right there and then…

but i never gave any of that aspect in my decisions.

well i decide

life’s been so full of nonsense.
i seemed so locked-up in the same
situation without even getting
out from it…
i’m over bored and desperate,
thought i hate to admit it…
i felt so disgusted of doing
everything without even getting
something in return…
sound so obnoxious
yet i keep on fighting and end up in
the same situation without a clue…
bhoy, am i not tired?
yes I am…over tired even.
everyday i search for answers and
yet everyday i don’t have any…
still i continue to be in the same
fit, where i am happy a minute of it
and i don’t the next minute…
let me try to recollect,
i am giving it all, yet i dont have you.
i wonder if time will come that you
and me will fit in one corner?
i don’t think so…
i am trying to find what’s install for me,
because i need happiness, i need
satisfaction…
im searching every area and aspects
of life where i can find my happiness
but i havent…
my last question is?
will i have it?
please send me some answers…

head is so breakin’…
like i don’t know where to turn,
no one can be blame but me

but still have so many questions,
so many disruptions
that i can’t even find an answer.

i don’t even know where to start.
don’t even know when to end
but one thing is for sure,
i am to be blame.

looking for some advices
northeast to southwest
but couldn’t find a clue

head hurts like hell
like how my life is
perturbed and agitated

how can i be so weak
yet it doesn’t show
or how can i be so strong
yet i appear so weak?

i wanna put an end to this
but will i ever end it?
i know i was so there when it started
but how come i wanted to disappear
when it is over?

so crazy…
and im on it
lookin like a fool
i am it,the crazy fool.

everyday is a doubt…everyday is dwell on skiptism…

you made infallible words that you’ll just be in idle. you made sure u made the right decision..

now u drawl that you’re a fake. now you say love is blind and sneer about it.

you make me feel dither and anxoius  of what’s a lie and what’s not.

what are these for? what are you opt to do?

i tend to always go for what’s real and free from any intent to deceive…you make me believe you’re true. but is there really verity to that?

 what are these hoax and garble for? what do you intend to do?

i need answers to all my questions that you alone can answer. but you always told me you’re not good at that?

you make decisions without knowing what other would feel and make me stumble over and over again for being so deceive.

i can bare the pain, i can handle this, u are just one of them…

that i have to believe to survive?

where are all the answers?

now i realize one thing…i don’t have it and will never have it.

i will deal with these and will get out from these…and i will begin it now…

two friends were walkin’, through the dessert. during some point of the journey, they had an argument and one friend slapped the other one in the face…

the one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

they kept on walking until they found an oasis where they decided to take a bath.
the one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him.

after he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on the stone:

“TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE “.

the friend who had slapped and saved his bestfriend askid him:

AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?”

the friend replied:

“WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.
BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND
CAN EVER ERASE IT.”

so learn to write your hurts on the sand and carve your benefits in a stone.

they say it takes a min. to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them…

the conquest of life…
have you ever been in a situation where
you’re turn between the whole truth and friendship?
scandalous conduct that will forever be a spot
a marked of disgrace to some people..
im devastated with peoples notion in life, although
i have my own mind…i know what’s the truth
and especially what’s not…
but have you ever been in this spot
where you don’t wanna deem everyone nor anyone?
i wanna make my own assessment, my own discernment.
but what’f it’s all about a friend you trust?
sometimes you get too puzzled to think that you just wanna let go;
let everything just pass by…
but just got so confused when at 1 point, someone, who’s
a total stranger begin asking you, is she your friend..?
now you get too stuck up with confusion,
then you just want to seatback & perceive to vanish from the idea…
tough as it may seem, struggles i can’t even control.
sometimes i just wanna get out of it.
situation is so vague, can’t find the truth,
recollect all the grieves & idea
may it mean reality or existence of a friendship
that is bound to corrupt
may it be a test of time…
a test of friendship that runs deeper and ever…
but as for me? i just decide to relax,
disregard my doubts and negative thoughts
and continue to perceive that my bestfren will always be my friend
no matter what the consequences maybe…
nobody really knows.i choose him nad is
willing to bond a friendship with him forever.

JPA

I ceaselessly have this way of thinking that happy endings are stories that haven’t been finished yet…

Once there’s a boy who fell in love with a lass…thinking that she was the rose among the thorns, wife material, silent type but rich and eye-catching, minimally the impeccable girl, someone who doesn’t belong to the crowd of individuals trying to be pathetic cool, a girl who wouldn’t drink and smoke to be precise…

As we call to mind those blissful thoughts when the lady was just a girl, she had many suitors. One was wealthy enough but was ardent to drugs, one was alluring but was so young to even fight for her, another was an intellectual college guy who use to be her batch mate but was indecisive of his feelings towards her, another was the girls childhood comrade whom she is comfortable with, but the guys feelings is fraudulent…

To all this scenarios of the girl’s life, the lad’s observant and keen to notice it. He made some enormous thing…and realized this: “Why don’t I court this girl? I love her enough that I know I can’t afford anyone to mar her especially not those guys. I’m here; better love her myself rather than catching a glimpse of an aching lass”

The boy was not perfect nor even close to perfect, he was just a middle student in college trying to be quick-witted to graduate, and we can even call him poor enough since his parents died years ago and doesn’t receive any subvention from anyone. He doesn’t dress in fancy clothes contrasting those losers who boaster branded clothes because there parents can afford them, and lastly, the guy is Ouch*, black and ugly. I know ugly is the last adjective I want to describe the guy, but well, I’m just mocking those people who knew him who always have that commentary. And he said it himself too, no worries. But on top of this unconstructive annotations, the lad have one thing to brag, the man loves the girl a lot and is determined to impart his life just for her bliss.

Believing on the idea of a knight in a shining armor, the girl confer a chance to the guy just to prove himself.

The man was short-handed on pleasing the girl …he was right, he only have the love for the girl…nothing more. The man just loves the girl too much without even thinking if the girl would be happy with it.

But the girl don’t want to rub the wrong way, so instead, she did everything just to fall in love with the guy. Renounce everything, sacrifice the people she love or the people she begin to fall for…just thinking what the guy’s intentions…it was all for her, right? How can she resist! Finally, in less than a year, the girl fell in love once with the guy…

For 5 years, the lady gives and did everything for the guy, as in everything…like all her life. And the guy? Well, he takes everything she had. And who ever thought about it? I haven’t thought about it.

Little did the boy thought that this girl will turn out to become a lady…a lady who’d turn out to be a different person…a type of lady that the boy, who’s a man now, wouldn’t even dare to look at in the first place…a lady who becomes a chain smoker, a lady who now drinks and drive…a lady that the man would never fell in love with…

Why? I mean why do you think the girl turn out this way? Think…think!

Reality hits the guy…he asked himself…

Soon enough, the man did change his criteria, values, aspects and ideals, just to accept what the girl had become…after all, he made her the way she’s now. But the lady thought of how the guy became her hero…

She then again, fell in love with him the second time…

But this time, the lady haven’t realize what’s love and what is too comfortable, what is falling in love and what is a comfort zone…

The truth? The love just died down with the years…the girl who became a lady was just getting too comfortable with the man he used to fall head over heels with, specially that after 5 years, the man tried to win the lost times that the lady had given its all…

Sad story, but is this the ending? Who knows, life doesn’t have an ending at all.

Now, the lady is in love with someone else, although, there’s no assurance that the guy won’t hurt her, but at least she got to choose who to really be in love with rather than forcing too much of the ordinary of loving someone who promises to love her…

The lady had force herself to be in love with someone she don’t love at all, yet she never was loved by the promising man, instead she was the one who provides the empty man the love he needed.

Now, the girl wants to follow her dreams, would you judge her? Or would you don’t?

I guess a lot will…but who are they to judge when they’re not in her shoes? Will they ever sacrifice their love for someone else and chose the man who love them just to deprive the man from getting hurt?

I always ask my friends…and they chose to take the risk of loving the person they’re in love with rather than be in prisond with the man they don’t love at all, just so they don’t get rejections from guys who can’t or who won’t love them back…

Love is freedom so why not take it? Rather than letting them take it from you.

But despite the fact that the lady is now in love with someone else, the lady’s still stacked with the comfort zone of her life…imprisoned in a situation she’s trying to get away from…

The lady by the way? The lady is the narrator of this story. *wink

i was just wondering why people i’ve run-in or crash into, used to make certain betrothal that they can’t fulfill, or just merely use languages or statements that could change your points of view in life, yet at the end of the day, you’ll find out, they don’t signify the guileless of it all.

perhaps just the pleasure of making someone special or simple gestures to have someone sit at your lap..

reasons connotes my mind…

it made me realize that words are just evident to the mind or our senses, may it be positive adjective or negative. one says it with feelings, one say it without.

but despite the drudgery of opinions in my head today, i still wanna reinstate to people who reads my blog, to choose the decorous words to rectify what you feel and be conscious of an inward impression against others.

simply say you care about someone, when you can handle the idea of caring that person your entire life.

course of the story is: try to handle what you intend to promise. merely say i love you if you really mean it, ayt?!

just don’t make things complicated if you ain’t ready for it. it’s not just a promise, it’s an obligation. (contractual obligation?*) just make sure you said it because you mean it. put your feet in their shoes, then you know what i mean. if you’re not ready for it, then why say it? no one’s forcing you to….or did _?